5 posts tagged “hugs”
first.. at work i had the most shitty day... i was really not enjoying serving white, middle aged housewives... they are the worst of the worst... some of them are bitter ladies that don't smile, don't say thank you and make me work hard for there miserable existence...i tried to be as nice as i could... but they look at me like I'm a terrorist... i bet they think that... that I'm a terrorist... the beard is a giveaway... once a very nice lady started to talk to me in Arabic... and asked me where i was from... ummm first i told her i was not really sure what she said to me and then i said... "ummm Jersey"... "no no... i mean where are your really from... cause my old maid was Muslim and taught me a few phrases"... in the end i had to plead with her that I'm actually American with a Latin/Italian background...
the other types of ladies are the hip, liberal, Ann Arbor mothers.... they come in their running gear and want to treat me like we are best friends... they fawn and pet my ego... but i hate them just the same... i don't want to be their friends... i don't want to sit there and listen to how much they hate the government and the President... i really don't care... they talk to me like I'm there best buddy and they understand me, the u underpaid, lower class cashier... on top of that they kind of flirt with me in a very obnoxious way... i just want them to be quiet and let me ring them up... but they just can't... shut up... they are way too hip for silence...
so... i was pissed at the ladies... and actually there is this one dude who wares a hair piece that started to talk lewd with me... he think he is so suave.... but he just comes off as a jerk off...
i was getting more and more pissed off...
on my lunch break i was trying to finish the graphic novel Blankets by Craig Thompson which is a beautiful tale of a artist's battle growing up in a Christian family... it's really moving and the art work is beautiful... the people at the diner i went to were being loud and obnoxious... so... it kind of ruin my mood for the story... plus i felt like i had to skip over a lot because of a sex scene that was a little too graphic... so i skipped over it to just be thrown into some of the sadder moments for the author... the story ended on a sad note... it seemed that everyone moved on but him... i though about it for a bit... about how much i love melancholy stories but i still feel really sad for these writers who seem to never get a break... but i guess the reward for them is to have there works published and get critical acclaim... sometimes i think... is that enough?
so i was a little down that the story ended so bitterly...
back to work and more shit from the soccer moms...
got off work and head to my house which was empty... it seems that my house is always empty... people never really hang out... i wish there was more community here...
so i decided to watch Kung Fu Hustle... i forgot how much i loved that film... its funny because that movie actually put me into a better mood... i was laughing and enjoying the progression of craziness that the film delivers...
after i left the house in a very good mood... i was noticing (maybe for the first time) how beautiful my neighborhood is... there is so many large, old trees... i love how quiet it usually is, even during the middle of the day... and i love that i have to only walk a few blocks to be in the heart of the downtown area...
i went to see my friend Tyler play at a local Indian restaurant.... to my surprise about 6 Black Elkers were there... they greeted me so warmly and made me smile and laugh... i was so grateful for them... Tyler was amazing (he told us that he had his best show every)... and the food was amazing... and even the beautiful Danie was there to give me a warm hug... god... it's so hard not to have a crush on her...
we all went our separate ways and i came here... and now I'm back to my empty house in my room typing this... i feel much better... I'm high off of the beauty of my friends and I'm really glad to have the chance to experience this time and this place...
love
kiwi
Take a photo of a tall, cool one.
he is really that tall...and i'm six foot tall... and he is the coolist dude i know!!
my day was well spent...
well most of it...
i started to pack for my move...
i have a lot of shit...
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plus i did all my laundry...
ummm is this worth a post...
do you really want to know that i just did my laundry?
something about cleaning that makes me happy... i love getting into a mediative state and being able to block out the world and all of my problems...
it's truly eases my busy mind...
i Emailed my mom and dad and send them a few pictures of myself... i'm really bad at keeping contact with other people... even my family..
so i try at least once a week to call my parents, my sister and my grandma...
a few hours after the email i got an email back from my mom saying that she wants to send me money for my move... who i to argue?
plus she sent me a few pictures of my sisters children which is cool because i never get to see them...
i really miss Luci and Matt.. i wish that the family lived closer together... buy my sister is in Arizona, and my parents and grandma is in Florida (i live in Michigan)...
ummmm... oh yeah... i bought tickets for me and friends to see Regina Spektor in Detroit...
I've seen her once in Chicago and she was amazing... so i know that she will be worth seeing a second time...
and lastly i got a few more pictures for my hug journal...
the pictures kind of suck because i don't have a scanner or a good digital camera... so these shots are from my camera phone...
that's Dillon and Zack... they are the 159th and the 160th hugs in my book...
I've slowed down a lot with the pictures... i hugged all my closed friends and family... and now I'm left with people I've never met...
it's kind of hard for me to go up to strangers and ask they for a hug... so i slowly wait until i feel comfortable with new people...
but I'm happy with how the pace is going...
OK... enough said... i need to fold my clothes and get ready for bed...
night...
love kiwi
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song Kiwi is listening to right now
For You Blue
by the The Beatles
[Queen says no to pot smoking FBI members]
Because you're sweet and lovely girl I love you,
Because you're sweet and lovely girl it's true,
I love you more than ever girl I do.
I want you in the morning girl I love you,
I want you at the moment I feel blue,
I'm living ev'ry moment girl for you.
[Bop. Bop, cat bop. Go, Johnny, Go. Elmore James' got nothin' on this baby! There go the 10 bar blues]
I've loved you from the moment I saw you,
You looked at me that's all you had to do,
I feel it now I hope you feel it too.
Because you're sweet and lovely girl I love you,
Because you're sweet and lovely girl it's true,
I love you more than ever girl I do.
I really love you.
i want to start another art project
something that lives and will be fun to put together
but i can't think of what i want to do
i have a few abstract projects that i've been working on that i like to take to new stages
right now the one that needs help is my hug journal
i have a big old album where i took pictures with a Polaroid of me hugging my friends/family and a lot of stranger...
it's been a cute thing to do but i want to do something bigger with it...
to start with i would like to see the pictures get out of the album and up on the wall...
after that i want to take it to another level...
like interview people about hugs
or write about what hugs means to different people
naw... i need something more inspiring to do with this...
i still have to think about this... but first i need to
get it out of the album and on the wall
yeah
love
kiwi
really oppressively hot right now
it seems like the heat is getting to me...
i feel really put out...
i don't really feel like doing anything...
but tomorrow (i have the day off) i need to get things in order...
i need to look at my finances and take care of my book keeping...
i also need to call my parents... it's been awhile since i've talked to them and they are most likely really worried about me...
come to think about it, i'm a bit worried about myself...
my spirit... my mind... my body have all been slowly falling apart...
i'm not sure right now what i need to do to fix things...
my only joys these days has come from reading and hanging with my friends...
but sometimes it's harder and harder for me to get myself in the mood to be with my friends...
i need to cherish every moment with them!
i need to hug them daily...
i need be open to their criticizing and/or advice...
these are really good people...
i am really lucky to be living in this house with these people...
they have been warmer to me then my real family...
i love love love love my parents and my sister but they were not as nurtering as i needed them to be...
here, in this house, the love flows...
like i said... i'm really lucky...
soon i'll be moving but i know that i will keep everyone close to me...
i will call... email... hang out...
and in my new house i make new friends that will be just as caring as the people here...
that's the life in a co-op...
it's just beautiful...
love
kiwi
